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Good change of pace.



Very good.

Remember when...

I'm so sorry I've neglected my two viewers.

I'm horribly busy at school, stressed beyond recognition, and utterly frustrated with everything right now.  So, naturally, I have a lot of time to think.  And I've got to be honest - most of the time, the things I think about are not good.  I mean, they could be good, but I always turn good things into obscenely complex and somewhat insane situations.  I think it's funny, for instance, that you can be there for people through everything - boyfriend/girlfriend issues, school issues, family issues, LIFE issues - yet, when you need someone, there is no one to turn to.  You shouldn't feel like your burdening people with your issues.  So, I've been keeping to myself a lot, throwing myself into school and the paper's planning.  And, when I do go out and/or tell someone about what's on my mind, somehow it just doesn't really help.  So maybe it's an issue with me, and not necessarily an issue with people.  See, whilst writing, I learned something.  Skills.

Now, on to my main issue, faithful blog.  I'm the first person to tell you what I think, but lately something has just been... eating at me.  And I don't fully know what it is just yet.  All I know is that I am so beyond frustrated with life.  In all actuality, there is no reason for me to feel this way, but I feel so angry all the time.  Nothing really goes the way I hope it will.  (Ah, that word.  Hope.  Does it exist?  There's doing and there's hoping.  Hope.  Huh.)  Anyway, every time I become interested in someone, I hear the phrase "I have to work on myself.  I have a wall protecting me."  And I'm not even exclusively referring to the people I've met while in San Francisco.  I completely understand said wall, but when you think about it, EVERYONE has been hurt in one way or another.  Everyone has this wall.  Some are bigger and stronger than others, but that doesn't mean they don't exist.  Everyone needs protecting; having a wall that you "can't break down," kind of seems like a cop-out.  But again, different people, different circumstances.  It's just completely interesting to find that so many people have the same mentality.  It's fascinating.  I have a wall, too, but I can tear down my wall, while some people can't.  Someone should write a book about it.

I've always loved music, but lately I've been getting more passionate about learning guitar and writing songs.  I have no idea why.  It's like someone opened my musical creative flood gates.  I've been listening to a lot of random artists lately - their chords, lyrics, melodies.  I feel so comfortable when I play my guitar.  And while I might only know four songs at the moment, I'm coming along.

Well, I guess that's all for today.  Hopeful I'll post more later.

xx